fake violinist opens up about the massive lie that broke her
What no one realizes is that these violinist, cellist and flutists do not play notes, their hearts
The room was filled with inflated music from a CD.
This is the way Jessica chichito sindman realized his dream of becoming a musician at the age of 20, traveling the world with a fake band.
At first, it was interesting to absorb worship from the crowd, but gradually, the huge gap between appearance and mediocre reality caused terrible consequences.
The group sold millions of CDs and played them on National Public Radio and public broadcasting services.
But their performance is a scam, led by an eccentric and charismatic liar.
Jessica, 37, first arrived in New York City from the Appalachian Mountains in West Virginia in early 2000, and was studying the Middle East at the prestigious Columbia University, hoping to succeed --
If it\'s not in the music world, be a journalist.
At the same time, she needs cash, so after donating a job and trying \"all sorts of bad jobs that people do to try tuition fees, she saw an advertisement on PBS and NPR for a violin player for $150 a day every Wednesday.
Jessica enjoyed playing the violin in high school, and even though she knew she wasn\'t the best, she sent a tape.
She was called to the office and handed over the job without an audition.
\"I was totally shocked,\" she told the news . \". com. au.
\"I thought it was a mistake and I didn\'t realize the microphone was turned off until I continued training on the weekend.
\"The training was conducted in New Hampshire, six hours from New York.
Jessica said: \"I have been imagining something very strange, but it\'s not like this. this is a craft exhibition, \"He wrote a book called\" sounds like the Titanic \"about strange musical deception.
When the orchestra began playing, the music was deafening and she was surprised by their playing skills.
But when she sold the cd to the audience, she finally understood.
\"It took me years, even with the violin, and it took me hours to realize that I didn\'t hear anything,\" she recalls . \".
\"They are really playing, but they are completely overwhelmed by this kind of music, which is the perfect visual illusion.
Your brain sees the violinist and hears the music and thinks it\'s the same thing because why not?
\"No one said about the scam, but when the student picked up the violin, she was sure that her real abilities would not be a problem.
\"I totally messed up and I couldn\'t find my place in the music, I really didn\'t play at all and the audience applauded.
\"I\'m really relieved right now because I know that if it\'s a really great concert, I know there are some mistakes in hiring me.
It makes sense that I really need the money and then all the people who look at me have something like I\'m an amazing violinist.
The person in charge of the work is a railroad worker who only calls him a \"composer\" as he is still performing at the top music venues in New York
Thin and handsome, hair messy, reassuring.
He praised her performance and just made her smile
Play more quietly.
It was a shame, Jessica said, but she needed the money.
When the composer took dozens of orchestra members across the country to perform for audiences in the exciting heart of the United States-from Thunder to Arkansas-she began to receive attention.
\"Over time, I have built this unhealthy relationship with the audience, and they praised me and said, \'You are too talented, \'even though I know it\'s not true.
It\'s like anyone wants to hear, especially when you\'re 20, 21, a woman who\'s been doing housework all the time.
\"She began to connect more and more with the eccentric leaders of the troupe.
\"I think one of the things that involved you is not that talented.
So what should we do when we are not talented?
\"How did you do it?
I feel like a lot of people are in a similar situation, you know, where you have this passion and you really want to do it and you will overcome the obstacles.
They started a three. month, 54-
The city\'s \"God Bless America\" tour, which appeared in Shanghai\'s largest concert venue in a series of shows in China, was well received on pbs TV.
Their lies don\'t seem to matter.
\"At one point, a sound technician ran out and said, \'We didn\'t get anything, we didn\'t get anything \'. . . . . . Everyone on the stage knows why.
\"The flute player said to the composer, \'Tell them \'. . . . . . Then they called a break so I didn\'t know what was going on.
But obviously PBS knows that because you don\'t realize that you can\'t live without sound, all the microphones are turned off.
\"I think what might happen is that it\'s all set up and it\'s a very expensive work and everyone is already there, like, Okay, take a shot.
\"Then what happened was that it was very successful and raised all that money for PBS and they were like, \'Let\'s do it again.
\"Jessica is now a creative writing professor living in Kentucky, and she thinks the scam sums up our society today, filled with\" fake news \", double life, and the increasing blur between reality and fiction
This ambiguity begins to devour her without even realizing it.
\"I started a panic attack.
At first it was like stage fright, but it got so bad that I had a lot of illusions like the stage lights would fall on me or I would throw up in front of everyone or pee my pants, it\'s just an embarrassing illusion, but they are very real in my body.
\"I really feel like I\'m going to vomit or pee or I think my legs are going to fall off . . . . . . When I put the book together, I realized that mental illness is losing your feelings about what is real and what is false.
\"Four years after God bless the end of her trip to America and working, she wanted to be a journalist in the Middle East, and Jessica left New York to live in the basement of her parents and did not even dare to go outdoors.
She began to see a psychiatrist and get to know her core questions.
Six months later, she served as the admissions secretary at Columbia University, allowing her to attend the writing course for free and eventually become a professor.
\"When I came to New York, I didn\'t think I would end up living in Kentucky as a professor, and it was funny that it was a complete dream come true,\" she said.
\"I love my life there, and I love my work very much . . . . . .
The city, Orchestra and music look perfect.
But the flawed reality, however imperfect, may be better.